I hate losing control of my life.
Because then I long for some control
So I “control” how much I eat.
And I relapse, and just stop eating.
My head is in turmoil over this, Im so hungry my body is screaming at me to eat, my right mind is screaming at me to eat. EAT SOMETHING ANYTHING!!
But I take one bite, and am done. One bite is enough, control yourself.
Why do I do this to myself.
Just go fucking eat something.